Happy Birthday Honey Bun ;)

We left off with Bey having a birthday dinner. Matthew made a smart comment that sent Bey off the edge. Instead of totally shutting down she decided to handle it right then so it wouldn’t become a reoccurring problem. Bey and Jay started to communicate and they started off with a clean slate. The next morning Bey woke up with a card and a box on her nightstand. Jay wasn’t home……HERE WE GO………

          Before opening her gift she looked around for Jay. “Jay, baby? You home?” She got no answer so she went ahead and opened the card. It read:

Happy Birthday baby! I love you so much!

 Im so happy we started communicating and I hope

 we talk like that more often it felt good to let some of that

 stuff off my chest…..I know I’m not home now but I should be

 home before noon! Go ahead and open the box, BEAUTIFUL!

J <3 –Jay

Bey got excited so she went ahead and opened the box. Inside was a chain on the chain was a ring. It was a gold ring, but there was nothing on it. She was confused. Then, she heard the door open. “Baby! You up?” Bey walked out to see Jay there.

“Jay…” Bey shuffled over to him with a big smile on her face. He put down his groceries and hugged her tight.

“I missed you, boo! How you feelin’?” He kissed her on the lips. “Is Lil’ Man still kicking?”

“Yeah, he’s still going at it. I might need you to rub my belly again.” He kissed her on the lips again then he bent down and kissed her belly.

“Why you giving Mommy a hard time? Huh?” He asked her belly. “Did you get your present?” He stood back up and rubbed her shoulders.

“Yeah. I don’t get it though, it’s just a ring.”

“It’s not just any ring, Bey? Look.” He showed the inside. “See I got it engraved. It says Beyoncé Gissele  & Shawn Corey Together Forever” Bey started to tear up.

          “Oh my gosh! I never saw that thank you! I love it!” She gave him a big hug. “Can you help me put it on?”

          “Yeah….turn around.” Jay put it on and kissed her neck.

“Jay you don’t know how much I want you, but all this kicking is ruining the feeling….” She pouted.

          “Okay, well imma put all this stuff away then. I want you to go lay down and I will be right there.”

          “Alright, baby.” She put her arms around his neck and gave him a kiss. He grabbed her hips and pulled her in closer. After a few seconds, he let her go. “I thought you would never let me up for air.” Jay laughed.

          “You’re such a clown, Bey.” He smacked her ass as she walked away.

She got in the bed and rubbed her belly. “C’mon Lil Man gimme a break…you’re killing me. Pleassseeeeee.” She tried laying on her back, but it was uncomfortable. So, she laid on her side, but then she couldn’t see the tv. She stayed on her side though cause it calmed the baby a little. After a few minutes Jay came up behind her and kissed her on the cheek.

“Hey, birthday girl. Last night, I figured since you don’t feel well I wouldn’t make you go out for dinner. So, I will be your chef tonight.”

“Aww Jay, you don’t have to.”

“Yes, I do! It’s your birthday and I love you. I can’t have you a Lil Man starve. Plus, I was thinking after we ate, I could run you a nice hot bubble bath, but not too hot, and rub you down real good even ya feet cause I know they hurt. Whatcha think?”

          “I think it’s perfect, baby. Thank you.” She kissed him.

“You wanna do something I mean I don’t have to start cooking for another three hours.”

          “I really don’t want to get up, so wanna watch a movie?”

“Anything you want…which movie?”

          “Something funny…..hmm….Coming to America?”

“Ah! Classic….of course.” Jay found the disc and popped it in. “Ooo, before it starts Solo dropped this off early this morning she has it from when she was pregnant with Julez. It’s supposed to help you sleep or something.” He gave Bey a huge body pillow.

          “Yay! I wanted one of these!”

“Why didn’t you ask? I would’ve gotten you your own.”

          “Must’ve slipped my mind.” She grabbed the pillow and laid on the foot of the bed so she could still see the tv while on her side. Jay cuddled up right behind her and went straight to doing his job. Rubbing her belly in big to medium to small circles. The previews were on so Jay thought he would calm Lil Man down before the movie started. He felt him kick and thought it was cool, but Bey was sick and tired of it, literally. She thought to herself: Fuck! Ughh! I wish it would just stop!!! Jay could tell she was uncomfortable.

          “Is there anything I can do for you, babe? I feel bad. You’re supposed to be happy on your birthday.”

          “I am happy honey…I’m just not comfortable. All you can do is keep doing what ya doing. It’s helping; I promise.”

          “You sure?”

“I’m positive.”

          “Okay good!”

They continued to watch Coming to  America. It ended around 3pm. Bey feel asleep so Jay decided to clean up around the house and start dinner. Bey woke up an hour and thirty minutes later to the smell of some good spices. SHOUTOUT TO HEAVEN DORSEY I LOVE HER #RANDOM She came into the kitchen up behind Jay.

          “It smells great, baby.” She put her arms around his waist as much as she could considering her belly was jamming into his back.

          “What’s poking me? Is that my beautiful pregnant wife?” She blushed and smiled.

          “Stop, Jayyy.” She giggled with embarrassment.

“Oooo I think it is.” He turn around and kissed her.

          “You’re such a clown.” He laughed.

“Wait…taste this.” He blew on the spoon and stuck it in her mouth.

          “Mmmmmm. That’s soooo yummy.” She smirked.

“I love the way you say that! Gosh I love you so much!”

          “How?”

“How? What type of question is that!? I’m the luckiest man in the world! People would kill to have you…men AND women!”

          “I wouldn’t!”

“Why not? When’s the last time you looked in the mirror??”

          “This morning! I look fat, bloated, swollen, I’m breaking out, I’m ashy!”

“Well I don’t see any of those things. Maybe a little bloated.” He laughed. “But I just see you and you will always be gorgeous to me!” He kissed her on the forehead and continued to cook.

          “You’re such a liar….it’s unbelieveable!” She smacked him on the butt and sat on a bar stool, watched him cook, and played with her new necklace….TO BE CONTINED……..Beyonce’s real birthday is next Sunday. Everyone is supposed to watch the video for Single Ladies on VEVO to give her the most viewed video!! That’s September 4^th!!!

Surprise! Mama Bey is PREGNANT!!! :D

IM STILL IN SHOCK SO WHEN I GET MYSELF TOGETHER I WILL UPDATE HOPEFULLY THAT WILL BE TOMORROW!!! :D

They're Two Sides To Every Story

Thanks for the feedback guys it helps a lot! School starts on Monday for me, but hopefully I’ll be able to keep up with updates.........We left off with Bey pushing Jay away, but eventually letting him back in…..Bey’s birthday is coming up so Mama Time suggested that she have a big family birthday dinner. Bey doesn’t want to, but Jay and Mama Tina convince her to go…..Dinner is in a few hours……HERE WE GO……

          Jay came home. “Bey?” He gets no response. He walked into their bedroom. She wasn’t there. “Bey?!?” He checks the bathroom she wasn’t there either.

          “Can’t you see? I’m in here!” She was on the living room couch. “I was trying to sleep.”

“Bey it’s 5:30 you have to get ready for dinner.”

“I don’t……want…..TO GO!” Bey screamed. Jay grabbed her.

          “Hey! Calm the fuck down! I don’t understand what the big problem is! Your mom is just trying to do something nice for you! We’ve been distance from our families and tonight should be a good time! Grow up, Bey.” He walked away. Bey grabbed his shoulder.

          “Jay!” Bey’s face was like WTF.

“What?!? C’mon everyone wants to see you! It’ll be fun! You’ll be fine I promise….”

          “No, Jay! Stop! It won’t be fun! I don’t want paparazzi all up in my face! My back hurts! My feet hurt! My head hurts! I’m tired! Lil Man is kicking like crazy! I just don’t want to go!!!!!”  Bey started to cry…..Jay held her and rubbed her back.

          “Sorry for yelling at you, but everyone is gonna be waiting for you and you’re just not gonna show up. Think about ya fam’ Bey. Besides you already told your mom you was going. Please…..I’ll be with you. And I can give you a full body massage when we get back. We also have some ice cream, but no dessert before dinner.”

          “I hate you. Fine, but I’m only doing it for the ice cream.”

Jay kissed her on the lips and wiped her tears. “Thanks baby……love you too. Now go get ready.” Bey rolled her eyes and went to go get ready. When they got to the restaurant Bey pretended to be happy. Everyone wanted a hug and a kiss. Mama Tina was there as well as Jay’s mom, Gloria, Jay’s sisters, Mickey, Annie, his brother, Eric, Solange, Matthew, Julez, Ty, and Angie. Solange is the only one that really has been informed with everything that has been going on between Bey and Jay. Everyone was having their own conversation and Bey looked bored. Jay rubbed her back. “It’s almost over babe.”

          She looked at him a cracked a smile. Then Matthew saw her not conversing so he spoke up.

          “So….Bey, do you know when you’re gonna get back into the studio?”

“I haven’t really been thinking about work, Dad.”

          “Oh…..well you should. What are your plans Jay?”

“I don’t have any plans either I was going to do a project with one of my friends, but it ended up not working out.”

          “Which one of your friends?”

“No disrespect sir, but it’s none of your business.” It got real quiet after Jay’s comment, but he didn’t want to bring up Kanye. So Jay’s mom said something.

          “Have you guys picked out a name? Do you know the sex?”

Bey answered. “We never told you? We’re having a boy.” She looked at Jay and rubbed her belly.  

          “We’re gonna name him after me. Shawn Corey Carter Jr.”

“Aww that’s nice. Guess I picked a good name.” They laughed.

          “Ha yep, I told Bey I wouldn’t have it any other way.” Bey smiled.

“Aye a smile.” Jay smiled and kissed Bey on the cheek. He loved seeing her happy…..been so rare now a days.

          “Are you going to have a birthday party Bey or is this all you’re doing?” Mickey asked.

          “I don’t really like big parties. I would much rather sit at home and watch movies then have a big fiasco. Ya know?”

          “Yeah I guess. Sometimes it’s better to just relax.”

“Exactly.” Bey giggled.

          “So what do you want?”

“For what?”

          “Your birthday? I have to get you something.”

“All I need is love.”

          “No, I’m serious. I have to get you something.”

“I’m serious, too. I think I have everything already. I honestly don’t need anything more than love and honesty.” Jay looked at her.

          “Bey you’re such a sweetheart. Glad we got you.”

Bey blushed. “Thanks. That means a lot.”

          “I’m glad we got her, too, sis.” Bey looked at Jay and he kissed her, then whispered in her ear. “See, I told you it wouldn’t be so bad. You’re all smiles.”

          She whispered back. “How you know I’m not fakin’?” She raised her eyebrows and smiled.

          “What y’all whispering bout’. There are enough of us here for conversation.” Solange interrupted.

          “Solange.” Bey stared at her.

“Sorry, it just looked like y’all were ‘bout to get down at dinner. Figured I’d break it up before anything too graphic happened in front of my son.” She rubbed Julez head.

          “Stop, ma.” Julez whined.

“Shut it.” She rolled her eyes. “So yeah Bey, you gon’ give him some? Jay? It is her birthday.”

          “Well she be giving it to others. Bey you should save some for your husband. Jay how you feelin’? Or was that none of my business, too?” Matthew caught everyone off guard with that comment. (even me damn) Bey’s jaw dropped.

“Ummm.” She looked at Jay and tears started to brim her eyes. She got up from the table and ran out the restaurant.

“Fuck you Matthew. That was way out of line. You have no respect for anyone!” Jay threw his drink in Matthews face and ran after Bey. Everyone started yelling at Matthew. Solange grabbed Julez and left. Mama Tina smacked Matthew and apologized to Jay’s family. Outside:

“Bey!” Jay ran out back knowing she wouldn’t leave from the front. “Bey!”

“I’m over here.” She wiped her tears. Jay found her sitting on a bench in the dark.

“Baby are you okay?”

          “I told you I didn’t want to come. Take me home. Now.” She was still crying. It was a silent car ride home. When they got in the house Bey dropped all her stuff and gave Jay a hug. “Can we talk?”

          “Of course, baby.” They sat down on the couch.

“Ok…..first off I wanna let you know that I love you and I think that one of our problems is that we don’t communicate. So I wanna tell you everything even if you already know it, ok?”

          “I love you too. You go first.”

“Ok…..Our problems started with Kanye. He called me and told me that you cheated on me. I believed him without ever coming to you. I had sex with him out of spite. I found out I was pregnant. I told you what happened. You found out I was pregnant, but not from me. I almost had an abortion. You came home and we made up . We came back to this topic a few times, but we never truly discussed it obviously cause we are still talking about it. Then, Dr. Ince violated me. I told you that I wanted to change doctors. I don’t know what happened, but you woke me up and accused me of having sex with him. I never had sex with him or kissed him. You left me for at least three weeks. You came back and I found out that let a woman suck you off and you returned the favor. I ignored you, but I needed you too much so I forgave you. Now today you forced me to go out to dinner and my father said something that hurt my feelings. Your turn.”

          “Okay. I’ll start with the day I started having a problem. You weren’t answering my phone calls. Then you called me back and I listened to you and Kanye fuck. I hadn’t heard from you in a few weeks, so one night I decided to call you. I yelled at you and you yelled at me right back. I heard about Kanye’s party I came back and beat his ass. I took you home. We fought then I found out why you had sex with him….then you found out that I never cheated on you, but you didn’t tell me you were pregnant!” Jay was getting angry. “You let me walk around like a fucking fool. Then I found out from a magazine and Kanye. I went back on tour then I came home after you called me.” He calmed down. “We spent good times together had some of the best sex. Then you told me that you wanted to change doctors so I called up Ince and asked him if anything happened. He told me that you advanced on him and that Lil Man could be his. Since you having sex with Kanye was true I figured that that was true, too. You said you didn’t have sex with him, but I didn’t listen. I went out and got sucked off and I returned the favor like you said. When I came back, I tried my best to be there for you and wanted to have you do things that were for the best. I shouldn’t have forced you to go out to dinner. And I regret making you go because of what your dad said, but I want you to know that I don’t care if Lil Man is not biologically mine. He is to me in the heart. You have to know that I have forgiven you for what you did with Kanye look at what happened last week I did the same thing to you. I love you and I will always love you no matter what.”

          By that time Bey was in tears. “Jay, I forgive you for what you and that girl did cause I understand, but nothing happened with Ince that I wanted! I hate myself for having sex with Kanye and it crosses my mind every day. I wish I could turn back time and just erase it from ever happening. You are such a great person because no matter what you won’t leave my side. I love you so much and I don’t know what I would do without you.” Jay pulled her into his lap and kissed away her tears.  They started to make-out. Jay picked her up (she must be heavy as shit lol) and laid her down on their bed. He started to undress her.

          “Jay…I don’t have the energy.”

“It’s ok. I’ll do all the work.” He kissed her neck and chest and all over her belly. He reached her kitty and took off her panties with his teeth. He kissed her treasure box like he would never see it again and pleasured Bey. This was better than a full body massage.

          “Oooooooo…….Jayyyyyyyyy………..Mhmmmmmm……”

“I just wanna please ya baby.” He inserted two fingers and Bey moaned really loud. He kept going until she came. He was hard, but respected Bey’s wishes. She kissed him.

          “Thanks baby.” They took a shower together and Lil Man was kicking a lot so Jay rubbed Bey’s belly until she could finally fall asleep. They spent the night cuddling. Seemed like the drama was finally coming to an end. When Bey woke up she saw a box and a card on her nightstand. She looked around for Jay put he wasn’t there…….To Be Continued……..

Distance

Why is my blog so sad? Is it too sad? Or do yall like it either way? Most of my posts reflect the way I’m feeling……ANYWAYS…..We left off with Jay coming home and Bey finding out about Jay having some “fun” with a chick on the side. She wasn’t too happy about it. In the morning he heard her moaning in a bad way…..HERE WE GO…….

Jay got up. "Bey you okay?" She was in the bathroom. He put his ear to the door. He heard the toilet flush and then the water in the tub started to run. He knocked on the door. "Bey?"

"Go away!" She blew her nose.

"Bey!"

"Jay I don't feel good! Leave me alone!"

"Babe! What's wrong?"

"You know what's wrong! I told you that I don't feel good. Please just let me take a bath without any interruptions..." He left her alone for a few minutes then opened the bathroom door. She was just getting out of the tub and was turned the opposite way. He grabbed her shoulders and she jumped and slipped. He caught her. "Jay! I told you to leave me alone! I'm fine just don't touch me!"

"You almost fell though!"

"Because you touched me!"

"Baby! I miss you!"

"Jay! I don’t wanna hear it!" He grabbed her by the shoulders again.

"Let me help you relax...C'mon please..."

"Jay...just...please...I wanna get back into my pjs and just relax...without you." She looked at him.

Jay let her go and called Chris (martin). "Hey, Jay. Wassup?"

"Chris I need help."

"With what?"

"It's Bey. I left and did some things I regret..Bey knows but she doesn't want anything to do with me. How do I get her back?"

"Well keep trying...if you really leave her alone she will think that you gave up, but be careful cause you don't wanna push her away..."

"Alright I feel you...thanks man. Once things get better wanna chill?" "Sure."

"Okay...thanks again..bye."

"Bye." Jay hangs up and goes into the kitchen.

"You hungry Bey?"

"No. Stop talking to me." Jay proceeded and made himself a samich.        "You sure?"

"Jay..." He went to go sit on the couch next to Bey but right before he sat down she stretched out. Jay lifted her feet and figured they could just rest on him. She kicked him. "It means this space is taken. Get up!"    Jay got up and moved to his Lazy Boy chair (from Tyra B.) "Do you have to sit in this room?"

"I'll leave." Jay got up and let Bey watch TV by herself. He went into his office and just sat at his desk. When he was done with his samich he took his dish into the kitchen to wash it. Bey was in there so he waited for her to be done. She left him her dirty dishes. He washed em and put em away.

"I'm going to the store...you need anything?"

"No." Bey really wanted some ice cream and a full body massage, but she had to keep up her act. She doesn't even know why. Jay "cheated" on her, but Bey cheated on him. She called Jay.

"Hello?"

"Can you get me some butter pecan ice cream?"

"Yeah, babe."

"Thanks." She hung up. Bey was feeling a lil naseaus again so she got up drank a glass of water and got in the bed. Jay came home a lil after and put her ice cream in the fridge. He didn't see her so he assumed she was taking a nap. He figured he would join.

"You mind?"

"Go ahead." He got under the covers and fought the urge to cuddle. He inched closer to her. He rubbed her arm.

"Jay..."

"Sorry." He moved his hand away.

"No...it's ok."

"I can touch you?"

Bey giggled. "Yeah."

Jay got real close to her and started to rub her belly. "Can you do my back and shoulders?"

"Of course. Wanna lie on your stomach?"

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"Oh. Duh!"

Bey sat up and shuffled her way in between Jays legs. He grabbed some body oil and rubbed it on Bey's shoulders and back. Half way through the massage Bey fell back into Jay. She was asleep. Jay kissed her on the forehead and fell asleep with her in his arms.

Jay woke up a few hours later, but forced himself to go back to sleep because he didn’t want to disturb Bey. He felt bad because of what she has to deal with. After being harassed he goes off and pleases a complete stranger without even caring, but then again she did cheat on him. It still bothers Jay. He hasn’t talked with Kanye for 7months. With all these horrible thoughts flooding his mind, Jay eventually fell asleep.

In the morning Jay woke up to an empty bed. Bey was in the kitchen arguing with her mom.

“I don’t want to have a birthday dinner!”

“Beyoncé, I saw you last week and you looked horrible! I need to know how you are doing and if I can do anything to make you feel better. Jay obviously isn’t doing his job! I think it’s best for everyone to get together!”

          “Ma! I don’t wanna talk about it! Jay is doing fine….Leave him alone…….We have our problems, but they are being patched up.”

“I will see you tonight at 7pm. No questions. You can relax on your real birthday, but you need to get out the house. Look put together please.”

          “This is ridiculous……..fine.”

“Don’t disrespect me! Now I gotta go…I love you.”

          “Mhmm.” Bey hung up the phone and she let out a big sigh. She got out her chair and saw Jay staring at her. “I don’t wanna go tonight.” She walked into his arms.

          “I know….just look on the bright side…you’ll get presents.” Jay smiled.

Bey giggled. “I guess….I still don’t want to go though.”

          “I’ll be there. It’ll be okay.”

“Ughh….okay I’ll go.”

          “Good. Now I’m going out. I’ll be back before six so I can get ready.”

“You’re leaving me?”

          “I have to go pick up something.”

“A whore? Bey pushed him out the way and got back in the bed.

          “Bey? What the hell? I thought we were past that.”

“It’s nothing.”

          “Bey?”

“I thought you were leaving?”

          “Ugh what am I going to do with you? I’ll be back.” Jay left. Bey took a nap and prepared herself for a dinner she wasn’t looking forward to……To Be Continued…..

Just Answer The Question

We left off with Solange and Julez being with Bey....she didn't feel good so she called it a night until her phone rang...it was Dr. Ince...HERE WE GO...
          "Hello?"
"I think we had. misunderstanding Bey."

"Who the fuck do you think you are! You messed up my whole marriage! I will report you!"

"You don't have to take it that far baby!"

"Fuck you!" Bey hung up the phone and started crying. She had no time for his foolishness. Julez heard her crying and came in her room.

"You okay Auntie BeyBey?" She wiped her eyes.

"Yeah, babe. Gimme a hug." Julez gave her a hug and he was ready to leave but Bey didn't let him go.

"Auntieeee BeyBeyyy! I can't breathe!" She let him go.

"Sorry hun. Are you guys staying tonight?"

"I don't know I'll ask Mommy."

"Okay let me know." Julez left and Solange came in a couple minutes later.

"Bey?"

"Yeah?"

"We can't stay the night, but call me if you need anything okay?"        "I will." Solange tucked her in.

"Night. I love you."

"Thanks Solo. Love you too." Bey got through the night ok, but she still didn't feel good. She didn't feel like bothering Solange so she just slept all day. Over the past two weeks Solange would stop by and check on her. Mama Tina came up for a visit, but Bey told her that Jay was just away doing business. She stayed for two days and then left. Bey's birthday is soon and she's not looking foward to it because Jay won't be there. She has nothing planned and doesn't want to do anything.
It almost 1am on September 2nd Bey heard someone making noise in the kitchen. She wasn't expecting Solange so she got nervous. She tip toed into the kitchen. When she saw Dr. Ince cooking naked, she screamed and yelled for him to get out.

"What's wrong bumblebee?" He grabbed her, forced his tongue down her throat and stuck his fingers up her tight hole....Bey jumped, gasped for air,  and opened her eyes realizing that she was in her own bed...alone. She took a deep breath and thanked god it was only a dream. Then she heard noise coming from the kitchen again. She pulled the covers off of her.

"Who's there?"

"Me."

"Who the fuck is me!?!" She slowly came into the kitchen and Jay stood there.

"Good to see you again too..." He smiled.

"Jay!" Bey ran into his arms. Jay hugged her.

"I'm sorry baby. I shouldve believed you. What we had going just seemed too good to be true.  I went over to Ince's and handled him. I ran into Solange on my way here last night she was about to come in but I told her to leave. She told me what he did to you and I'm sorry I wasn't there for you."

"Why were you gone for so long!?!?"

"I just needed to clear my head."

"Yeah, but nobody knew where you were! You didn't call or pick up your phone! I was worried sick about you! Literally!"

"Babe, I'm sorry! You feel okay now?" Bey stared at him and then walked back into the bedroom.

"I'm just tired." Jay followed her and hugged her from behind. "Imma get something to eat and then I'll come to bed." He kissed her on the neck. She couldn't go to sleep because she wanted to ask him something.

"Jay?"

"I'm coming now." He walked into the bedroom.

"Did you do anything with anyone while you were gone?"                       "I didn't have sex with anyone if that's what you're asking." He got in the bed.

"I'm asking if you did anything with anyone...that includes a kiss, a lick, a suck."

"No, Bey."

"Liar." She pulled the covers over her.

"How am I lying!?!" She closed her eyes.

"Check your neck."

"What are you talking about?" Jay got up and looked in the bathroom mirror. He had a hickey on his neck.

"Shit! Bey I can explain."

"I don't wanna hear it."

"C'mon I know I didn't let you explain yourself but please let me."   "You already lied because you said you didn't do anything. That's enough of an explaination." He grabbed her arm.

"Bey? I was angry I thought you had cheated...but I did not have sex with her! I swear!"

"Who was it?"

"I don't know it was a chick from the club."

"That's disgusting! You had sex with some random woman!"

"I didn't have sex with her! I'm telling you!"

"Then what the fuck did you do with her that doesn't involve sex but does involve hickeys!?!?"

"She gave me head...nothing farther than that!"

"Did you return the favor?"

"What does it matt-"

"Just answer the question...did you return the favor?"

"Yes! I did! What difference does it make!?!"

"Don't you ever kiss me again...I hope you brushed your teeth...I can't stand you..." Jay tried to touch her and talk but she put up her hand.

"Please just let me sleep.....please...." He left her alone and covered his face with his hands. He scratched his head and went to sleep. Jay woke up to Bey moaning. Not in a good way....To Be Continued....

Feel So Alone Without You

This is a short post, but I told Renay I would update soo…….We left off with Dr. Ince telling Jay that Bey advanced on him and he also told Jay that the baby could be his....HERE WE GO.....

Bey woke up the next morning on the floor. "Jay?" She got up. "Baby?" Then she remembered what had happened the night before. He wasn't there. She called his phone but it went straight to voicemail everytime. She never left the house and whenever someone asked to hang out she told them she wasn't feeling well.

After a week of not seeing Jay she called up  Solange.

"Hey Solo can you come over?"

"Sure Bey what's been going on I haven't heard from you or Jay in forever.

"Sorry I'll tell you everything when you get here."

"Kay bye."

"See you soon." Bey hung up and got something to eat. She did her normal daily cry and conversation with her Lil Man.

"Lil Man...I don't know what to do. I don't know where Daddy is and I can't contact him. This is a mess." There was a knock on the door. Bey got up and opened it.

Solange was standing there. Bey gave her a big hug and started to cry. "Aww Bey. Tell me what's wrong. Look how big you are." Bey released Solo and went into her bedroom and laid down. Solange sat at the end of the bed.

"My doctor was touching on me in places that he didn't need to and now Jay thinks that I had sex with him and that this is his baby."

"You didn't have sex with him did you?"

"No! Solo what type of person do you think I am!?! I haven't heard from Jay in over a week and its scaring me! I just want him to know that it is all a lie!"

"Give him time. He will show up eventually."

"I know, but I miss him and I want things to be fixed now!"

"Bey just give him time. If he loves you he'll come back. You want me to stay the night?"

"Could you? I feel so alone." They agreed for Solange to spend the night and the rest of the day they ate and watched movies. Anything to keep Bey's mind off Jay.

When it came around bed time Bey asked Solo if she would sleep with her. "Sure...do you need anything before I fall into a deep sleep?"

"Jay would always rub my belly...you think you could?"

"Of course." They went to sleep and Bey had the same nightmare, but Solange never noticed her squirming.

Bey woke up around 4am and couldn't go back to sleep so she watched some tv and fell asleep on the couch.

In the morning Solange left her a note: I'll be back with Julez tonight  made you breakfast...love you <3 

Bey went into the fridge and saw some pancakes. "Hmmph." She wasn't in the mood for them, but ate them anyways. She chilled the whole day.

When Solange came with Julez she brought dinner. After Bey ate she wasn't feeling to well. She threw up her food and got extremely nauseas. "Sis, you ok?"

 "I don't feel good...imma just go to sleep." She brushed her teeth, put on her pjs, and got in the bed as soon as her phone rung. It was Dr. Ince....To Be Continued....

If Only You Would Let Me Explain

We left off with Bey and Jay having a great couple of weeks, but all good things have to come to an end....HERE WE GO.....

Bey was moving into her sixth month. She had an appointment in a few minutes.

"Jay are you coming with me?" He came up behind Bey and hugged her.

"Doctors? That's today? Shit, I'm sorry babe I gotta go to the office today I gotta meeting." She pouted.

"Oh.....well it's okay."

Jay rubbed and kissed her belly. "You two will be fine. I should be home around three."

"Three! I'll be home before one!"

"Why don't you ask Angie or Solo to chill with you?"

"They're probably busy. I'll be okay."

"You sure?"

"Yeah."

"Okay. Good. I love you."

Jay gave her a kiss on the cheek and bounced. "Love you too."

She rubbed her belly and watched him leave. The same monthly check-up went fine with Dr. Ince, but he did one thing that startled her and she noticed he only did when Jay wasn't with her. He would check inbetween her legs.

"Mhmmm."
"Is everything okay?"

"Yep. You look great." He kept messing around with her kitty. "Can I ask exactly what you're doing?"

"Just checking you out. It's mandatory." Bey sat up and closed her legs. She felt uncomfortable.

"You didn't last time. I'm sorry I would just rather not have you....you know."

Dr. Ince kissed her while she was talking and he reached to put his hand back inbetween her legs. Bey pushed him off. "Hey! STOP!"

"What's wrong?"

"Ugh...you're my doctor and I'm married! You pevert!" Bey pulled her pants back up and put her shirt down. She grabbed her bag and ran out.

 "Everything alright?" Julius was waiting outside.

"Take me home now please." She started to tear up. When she got home she didn't know whether or not to call up Jay. She took a quick shower to get Ince's touch off of her.

When Jay got home Bey tried to act normal, but she had to say something. "Jay?" He was in the bathroom.

"Yeah?"

"I think I wanna change doctors. I want a female doctor."

"I like that idea. What makes you want one now?"

"Oh, nothing. I guess so I could relate with my doctor more."

"Alright. That's fine with me." Jay knew that she wasn't telling him something. When she fell asleep that night he called up Dr. Ince.

"Hey Dr. Ince it's Jay...Beyonce's husband."

"Oh. Hey, is everything okay?"

"She told me that she wanted to change doctors and it was just out of the blue so I wanted to know if anything bad happened today."

"Well you see I was checking out the baby and she started to advance with me I told her to stop because she had already done enough damage."

"What the hell!?! What damage had already been done?"

"We hooked up when you were gone and I hate to break it to you, but she could be pregnant with my baby." Jay hung up the phone and woke up Bey.

"Hey! Wake up!" He nudged her.

"Jayyy I'm tiredd. What?!?!"

"You fucked Ince!?! Bey really!?!" Bey sat up.

"Jay what are you talking about!?! I never had sex with him!"

"Don't lie to me! Who the hell didn't you have sex with while I was gone!?!? When the husbands away let the kitty play! What the fuck Bey! I just can't with you!" Jay got dressed and started to pack an overnight bag.

"Jay! Let me explain! If you listen you'll understand!"

"Shut the hell up!" Jay left the bedroom.

"Where are you going!?!?" Bey got up and followed him. He ran down the steps and slammed the front door shut. Bey rushed after him but by the time she got to the door he was gone. "JAY!!!!!" She dropped to her knees and started to cry……To Be Continued…......

Close Your Eyes And Enjoy The Ride

We left off with Bey and Jay finding out that they were having a baby boy...Bey asked Jay if he had a problem and it blew up into a conversation about Kanye again.  It ended with Bey waking up from a nightmare where something was trying to kill her baby...HERE WE GO.....
Bey woke up a few more times that night and Jay just held her to reassure her that it was all just a bad dream. Jay woke up early and let Bey sleep in. He made breakfast and saved some for Bey knowing she would be hungry when she woke up. He showered and then watched some tv. Bey came behind him and kissed him on the cheek.

"Morning baby."
"Hey beautiful." He kissed her on the lips. "There is some bacon and eggs left for you." (@Fetus_Knowles was tired of Honey Nut Cheerios)
          "Aww you made me breakfast. Sorry I woke up so late." Bey smiled and heated up her food.
"It's okay. You had a rough night."

"We are never watching scary movies ever again before we sleep. You hear me? Those nightmares are still in my head. They tried to kill me and Lil Man."

"Ok no more scary movies. I'm sorry babe. Lil man is okay right?" He came up behind Bey rubbed her belly and kissed her on the neck.

"Yeah I think so. He's probably just a little startled. Nothing a rub from daddy can't help." She put her hand over his. "After I eat you wanna mess around?" Bey bit her lip.
"Ayye finally thinking right! Of course I wanna! I like this side of you, its turning me on." He grabbed her ass. 

"I said after I ate!" Bey laughed.

"Okay. Okay." Jay backed off. "I'll be waiting in the bed." 

"Okay." Bey smiled at him. When she was done eating she slowly peeked her head into the bedroom. Jay looked up. "Hey you. Ready?"
"What type of question is that? I'm always ready. Come here." Bey climbed onto the bed and over to Jay. She kissed him on the lips. "I love you kissing you baby." Bey blushed. They continued to make out with long passionate kisses. Bey felt Jay's dick getting hard. She pulled it out and started to deepthroat.

"Mhmmm Bey damn I taught you well." She kept going for five minutes when Jay couldn't take no more. His toes curled she was sucking him down so well. "Oooo Bey I'm bout to burst!" She kept her head down and swallowed everything Jay shot in her mouth. "I love you sooo much you're the greatest! Now lemme see that beautiful ass!" Bey wiped her mouth and went over to Jay. 

"Love you too now put it on me daddy..." He smacked her ass.
"B-e-a-utiful! Mhmm you ready?"

"Let's go get 'em... Now c'mon give it to me..." Bey was whining. He was taking too long for her.
"You know how I feel about complaining babe. Here you go." He rammed himself inside of her. 

"Fuckkkkk! Jayyyy oh my god you are too big for thattt!"
"You asked for it." Jay laughed and kissed her booty cheeks. "I'm sorry babe. I'll be gentle. You think Lil Man felt that?" He said as he stroked in and out of her slowly. 

"Mmmmmmm I hooopppppee noott. Seeee this is whatttt I wasss askinngg forr." She moaned.
"Aint no need for complaining when you know imma put it on you." He cracked a smile.

"I hate when you make me waitttt! I was craving you sooo bad daddy. " Bey rocked her hips to coincide with Jay's thrusts.
"You were?"

"Uhhh Mhmmm."
"Were you craving this?" Jay fit all of himself inside of Bey and she gasped. 

"Fucccckkkk yyeeesssss oh myy god." Bey started to shake cause Jay kept going deeper and deeper. "Jaaaayyy! Ooooooooo! Yesss right there!" Jay was really working her with all of him.

“Mmmmm I knew you liked that.” He crunched over her….still stroking and played with her kitty.

          “Ohhhh Jayyyy. I don’t know if I can take booootttthhhh…” She grabbed the sheets and pulled on em. She put her head in her pillow, bit down on the bed, and squeezed her eyes shut, while Jay was hitting it from the back. “Ohhhhhhhhh mmmgodjdohdnjayyyyyyfvjnkdf!” She came up for air. “Uhhhh *gasp* Jayyyy it’s bout to happennnnn…” Jay pulled out and flipped her onto her back and spread her legs. He still kept a steady stroke. Bey tried to kiss him, but she was breathing heavy and couldn’t keep her mouth closed. Jay put his hand over her mouth. “MHHHHMMMMMMM!!!!” Jay busted another nut as soon as Bey came. Jay stayed in and stared into her eyes. Bey’s eyes were closed. She touched Jay’s chest and rubbed her hands all over his body. She bit her lip and kissed him. “I love you, Jay.”

          “I love you more.” He smiled.

“You may love me more, but I’m in love with you.”

“Babe…” He looked at her. “I fell in love with you the day I looked into your eyes.” He kissed her on the neck and lips. Bey was speechless after that. The rest of the day they were all lovey dovey. Constantly flirting and teasing each other. They took a bubble bath together and had sex in the tub. That’s how it was for the next couple of weeks. No distractions….no fights….just everything picture perfect….UNTIL IT ALL CAME CRASHING DOWN………….To Be Continued……..

We've Been Over This Before

S/O to @BeyonceFan3 on Twitter "How Many Licks" haha......We left off with Bey and Jay trying to figure out names…Then Bey had a doctor’s appointment to determine the sex of the baby…HERE WE GO…
                    “Mrs. Carter?”
“Right here.” Bey stood up. “Jay aren’t you coming?”
          “Yeah.” He stood up, took her hand, and they went into the room.
“So how far along are you?” The nurse asked.
          “21 weeks.”
“5 months? You know you can detect the sex of the baby today.”
          “I know! We’re very excited.”
“Alright well Dr. Ince will be in with you shortly.”
          “Thank you.” The nurse left. “Jay aren’t you excited?”
“Yeah, Bey. Don’t worry I’m hype!” Jay cracked a smile and held her hand.
          “Knock, knock.” Dr. Ince poked his head through the door. “Hello?”
“Hey, Ince!” Bey smiled.
          “Hey Mrs. Carter, Mr. Carter.” He shook Jay’s hand. “Nice to see you again. You think you’ll be able to stay in the room today?” Jay chuckled.
“Yeah. I think I can make it.” He rubbed Bey’s arm.
          “Such a punk.” Bey commented and they all laughed.
Dr. Ince pulled up a stool. “So today we are finding out the sex of the baby? Or do we want it to be a surprise.”
          “I don’t like surprises so I want to know now!”
“Alright. Go ahead and lay back.” He rubbed the jelly stuff on her belly and observed. “Drumroll please.” Bey patted on the sides of her. “You guys are having……A BOY!”
          “Yess!!! I knew it!” Jay cheesed and kissed Bey on the lips. “Isn’t this great!” Jay was too excited.
“Yayy! I was hoping for a girl, but I love boys.” Bey was slightly disappointed.
          “Congrats! I think we’re done for today baby boy looks nice and healthy!” Dr. Ince gave Bey a high five. He wiped her belly off and Bey sat up. “Now I just want to tell you one thing. Baby boy is healthy, but don’t think that means you can slack. Keep up a good diet and stay out of stressed situations.”
          “Okay, I think I can do that.” Bey stood up.
“Mr. Carter can you help her with that?”
          “I can handle that.” Jay held onto  the small of Bey’s back helped her up.
“Thanks Ince.”
          “I’ll be seeing the both of you next month?”
“Yes sir.”
          “Okay have a good day.”
“You, too.” Jay said as they walked out. “Bey? Aren’t you happy? We’re having a boy!”
          Bey smiled. “Jay you’re such a clown. Yes, I’m very happy. I’ll have my boys.” She rubbed her belly.
“What do you want to do today?”
          “Sit in bed all day. I’m tired.”
“Tired? It’s only like 10.”
          “Can we just take a small nap?”
“I guess…if you want.”
          “Thanks baby.” She kissed him on the cheek.
When they got home Bey went to take a nap, but Jay wasn’t having it. He went out to have some drinks with Chris Martin and have kid talk.
          “Where’s Bey?”
“She’s at home sleeping.”
          “Why aren’t you with her?”
“Cause I’m here with you. I wasn’t tired.”
          “Jay she’s pregnant. You gotta be there for her. When she says she wanna take a nap she wants you to be with her. I went through two long ass pregnancies trust me I know.”
“I guess you’re right. I guess I have to go then. I’ll see you later. Tell Gwen I said hi.”
          "Will do. See you later." Jay left Chris alone.When Jay got home, he climbed into bed with Bey. She smiled when she felt him against her. I guess Chris was right. When Bey woke up she got into the shower. Jay woke up and heard her and thought of it as another opportunity to get some. He came in behind her."Jay! I'm glad you came back. I really wanted to be with you."   "A lil birdie told me that you needed me so I came back." He kissed her on the neck. He let his hands follow the curves of her body. "You have the best body babe.""Not with this bump, but thank you." She kissed him on the lips. Jay winked at her and starting to play with her kitty. "Uhhh Jay. That feels good, but I'm not in the mood sorry." She turned around. Jay started rubbing on her bare ass. "Jay I'm serious stop." She finished washing up and left Jay to shower with himself. She was sitting on the bed reading her books when Jay walked past her into the kitchen. He mumbled "bitch" as he walked past.
"What was that?"
           "Nothing hun."
"Do you have a problem Jay? I feel like you've been kind of distant."
           "How am I being distant?!?""You didn't want to take a nap with me, you didn't want to come in the room at the doctors, do you not like spending time with me or something? You always bring up Kanye. It makes me feel bad about myself." Even though Bey was angry she started to cry. Jay walked over to her.
          "Bey stop...stop crying." He hugged her. "Look at me." He picked her chin up. "I love you. I'm having just as much of a hard time as you are with this pregnancy. Yes this is not my baby, but at the end of the day you are the mother and the mother of this baby is my wife. I just wasn't tired earlier, but I realized it’s not about me. I'm so excited for lil man and because I love you I can love him."
          "I love you too. It just really bothers me that I'm not having your child. I know you'll be a great father but I want to give you children of your own and I just want to make you happy and recently everything I have done is just making our situation worse. I keep blaming myself for this because it's my fault I should've trusted you and confronted you before going off and being reckless. And I want you to back me up and you do but on the other hand I feel as if I should just let you go because this" She pointed to her belly. "Is not your responsibility."
          "You're my responsibility which means anything growing inside of you is my responsibility." He kissed her on the lips. He moved her books over and laid her down.
          "Jay I said I wasn't in the mood c'mon I'm upset." He got up and grabbed some lotion.
          "I just wanna give you a massage and relax you. Like the doctor said you shouldn't be stressed out."
          "Aw okay. You're gonna make me tired again." Jay gave her a full body massage from her shoulders to her toes and she felt so relaxed. He let her lay in the bed while he made dinner.
          "Dinner is served." Bey got out of bed and kissed Jay on the lips."Thanks baby. This really means a lot." Jay made steak with mashed potatoes and corn. They ate and Bey had itis. "Ugh, Jay I'm stuffed literally. Can we go to sleep."
          "I was thinking we could watch a movie."
  "Okay one movie and thats it." They cuddled on the couch while watching  Mirrors. "Can we watch something else? I'm scared."Jay made her watch it but she fell asleep in his arms anyways. He turned the movie off, picked her up and put her under the covers. Jay turned off the light and went to bed too. Bey was moving a lot in her sleep.  At one point she screamed like someone was trying to kill her. She actually started to cry in her sleep. "Aaaah!!" Jay woke up and shook her so she would wake up.
    "Bey wake up! It’s just a dream! Why'd I make you watch that movie....Bey!" After two shakes/nudges Bey woke up.
    "Jay! It was trying to kill my baby!" (Mirrors is a very scary movie) Jay held her until she calmed down and went back to sleep....To Be Continued.....