Not The Same

I know I said that I was going to update Friday, but some plans were made and I was out for the nighttttt…..so I’m sorry LOL…..HERE WE GO….

  The elevator door opened and they dashed down the hall into Jay’s hospital room.

          “JAY!!!!!!!” Bey ran up to the bed and started kissing him all over the face.

*thirty minutes ago, when Jay woke up*

Jay’s nurse, Tyson, was checking his vitals before she went on a small break. When she pushed the new IV in, his face scrunched up and he let out a grunt.

           “Mr. Carter?!” She brushed his face and Jay took a strong grip of Tyson’s arm. “Ow, shit. Mr. Carter. You’re hurting me.” Jay squinted and blinked a few times.

          “It’s so bright.” He let go of her and she turn off one of the lights.

“Is that better for you?”

          “Yeah. Who are you?”

“I’m Tyson. I’m your nightly nurse. Welcome back.” She gave him a pat on the shoulder. “I’ll be right back. I’m going to get the doctor and call your wife.”

          “Wait. I’m not married.”

“Yes you are. You’ll remember when you see her, don’t worry.”

      “I don’t know what you mean by that.”

*30 minutes ahead, when Bey comes in*

“JAY!!!!!!!” Bey ran up to the bed and started kissing him all over the face.

          “Excuse me!” He pushed her face away. “Can I help you?”

“Jay, baby? Babe, no.” She grabbed his hand and he snatched it away.

          “Who do you think you’re calling baby?”

“Mommy, why’s Daddy acting weird?” Shawn clutched to her thigh.

          “I don’t think he remembers us, baby.”

“But we just saw him earlier today.” She put him on the bed.

“Here, see if he’ll talk to you.” She stepped back.

“Daddy?”

“I’m not your father.”

          “Daddy, don’t talk like that.” He pouted and was about to cry. “Mommy, I want to go home!” A tear rolled down his cheek. Bey held him, wiped his tears and looked into Jay’s eyes.

          “Baby, it’s me. I’m Beyoncé Knowles-Carter. I’m your wife.  You have been in a coma for a few months.”

          “You think I’m going to believe that. He’s my son? You’re my wife?”

          “Look at your hand I’m not lying. Your ring finger. You have a wedding ring and under that the Roman numeral four. I have a matching one.”

“Is this a joke?”

“Nope….I’m pregnant with your daughter, too.”

“A baby girl?” He smiled. Bey did too.

“Yes.”

“I don’t remember any of this shit, but you look familiar.”

“What’s the last thing you remember?”

“Um…to be honest I don’t remember. I think I know you, though. You sing right?”

          “Yep.”

“Yeah, yeah. I like you. You take your shit seriously and you got an amazing voice.” He smirked and Bey blushed.

          “Thank you. Now, why don’t you come home with us? You can’t stay here.”

          “I guess I have to. Y’all are family, right?”

“Yes sir and your mother, Annie, Michelle, and Eric are in the lobby. They wouldn’t let them come up. You want to talk to them?”

          “They’re all here? For me?”

“Yes, they’re here for you.”

          “Damn.” Bey called Annie. They talked and then decided to all go home. Jay would come home in the morning…..

*at home*

“I’m glad I saw Daddy today, Mommy.”

          “So am I, baby.” She pulled the covers up to his neck.  “Now, he’s coming home tomorrow so you need to get a lot of sleep.” She kissed him on the forehead. “Goodnight, love bug.”

          “Goodnight, Mommy.”

*at the hospital the next day*

“Your wife will be here in the next hour so we’re going to get an x-ray of your ankle and see how long you have to wear the cast for.”

          “Okay. Ah, I can’t to see her. She’s gorgeous.”

“How sweet.” Tyson helped him into a wheel chair and pushed him down the hall. They did the x-ray and said that they would call him to come back. Jay was sitting up in the hospital bed dressed in some sweats. Shawn peeked around the corner.

          “Daddy?”

“Ayeee! Lil man! Hey, come here!” Shawn ran up to him and gave him a big hug.

          “I missed you, Daddy. Mommy said that you are coming home today!”

          “Yes, I am!”

"Yay!" Then Bey walked in.

"Shawn babe, don't run off like that."

"I'm sorry, Mommy. I just was so excited to see Daddy that I had to run."

"I understand. It's alright, babe.......You ready, Daddy?" Jay was caught off guard by that.

"Uhhh...yeah. Let's go home!"

"Alright, then." Tyson walked in and discharged Jay.

*at the house*

Shawn ran and opened the door, while Bey got Jay's crunches out of the trunk and helped him into the house. He sat down on the couch.

"Damn, this is a nice ass place."

"Jay can you watch your language please. He's only three."

"I'm sorry. I forgot."

"It's alright." She kissed him on the forehead and sat down next to him. Shawn was behind the couch playing with his toys.

"I know this might me weird for you, but can you just like kiss me."

"You want me to kiss you?"

"Yes. Remember we're married. I'm pregnant and I haven't had any in two months. And that broken ankle won't help anything. Please."

"You don't have to beg me. You're a fine woman. I'd be happy to kiss you."

"Then do it." Bey closed her eyes and Jay held her chin. He pressed his lips into to hers, sucked on her lip for a second and then pulled back. They both smiled at each other. "Thank you." Jay giggled.

"You're welcome Wifey."

"Aww, the last time you called me that was on Christmas Eve. That was one of the best nights I've had with you."

"Aw. That sounds sweet. You wanna tell me about it?"

"Oh....yeah. I will."

"Mommy, I'm hungry." Shawn tapped Bey’s shoulder. Bey patted Jay on the thigh and stood up.

"Whatchu want, baby?"

"Umm I want some cake."

"I don't think so, Hun."

"But I don't want anything else."

"But you're not getting that so you want a waffle? Chicken nuggets?"

"Can I have some nuggets?"

"Sure. Jay are you hungry?"

"Um, I'm fine for now, baby. Thanks."

"Mhmm." Bey fixed up Shawn some lunch and then put him down for his nap.

"Bey, come here."

"Yes?" She sat on his lap.

"I wish I remembered. I really do. I can't be a husband to you or a father to my son if I barely know you guys."

"But you do, baby."

"I wish. It's like I just met you, but we've been friends for a while now. I know that. Tell me why I was in the hospital."

"I don't like talking about this, but it was Valentine's Day and we dropped Shawn off at your mothers I think. We went home and ate dinner then we started getting romantic and all lovey dovey. You picked me up and we went upstairs. It started on the bed, then into the tub. That was some of the best sex I've ever had. I was so tired after, but that could've been because of this one."

She rubbed her belly and Jay put his hand over hers. She blushed.

"Um then we went to sleep. Well, I woke up around three and I went to the bathroom.  There was blood in the toilet and I got scared and panicked. I screamed for you and then we went to the hospital. I was nervous that I was having a miscarriage. I was so scared."

Jay put his arm around her. "So on the way to the hospital we went head to head with an ambulance. All I could see was the blood coming from your head and it was tilted to the side. Never again and.....I don't want to talk about the rest." She turned her head to the side and there was an awkward silence for a moment.

"I'm sorry. Tell me about Christmas Eve then."

"Okay. So we were going to wrap presents, but I decided to let you have one of yours early. We had sex in front of the fire and then wrapped presents together, but all day you were calling me wifey. It was so cute and romantic." She smiled and Jay brushed the hair away from her face.

"You have a beautiful smile. I love you."

"You don't mean that."

"Yes I do.”

"But you don't know me."

"I know enough." He kissed her belly. "Let's act like nothing even happened. No accident. No coma."

"That's easy for you to say. I could never forget. The pain I went through these past few months is unforgettable."

“Why?”

“Why?!?! The love of my life was lying in a hospital bed lifeless! I didn’t know if you were gonna be breathing the next day or if I was going to have to raise our son on my own. What would I tell your family? Would I break down and be depressed all the time? How could I live each day without you? What would the media say? Could I handle it? Listen. If I didn’t have you, I wouldn’t have my life and that scares me. The love I have for you scares the fuck out of me! I wish I wasn’t so dependent on your love, especially because of things like this.”

          “Like what?”

“This situation. I’m married to someone that basically just met me.  I’ve spent half my life with you, Jay and you don’t even remember. When I first walked in that hospital room I wanted to burst into tears. You acted like you didn’t know me because you didn’t.”

          “I’m trying to.”

“Yeah, but it’s never going to be the same. You’re not going to remember the birth of our son, the night we conceived our baby girl, our first time, the fights, the special dates, the inside jokes. You’re almost like a replacement. Will I always be waiting for my husband to come back?”

          “But it’s me Jay!!! I’m still the same person! If you tell me about the times we’ve had it’ll be okay! If I really didn’t remember I probably would still be at the hospital. I wouldn’t be trying to make things work now! Beyoncé you’re a beautiful woman! I want to be with you! Even if we have to start over! I’m sorry! I’m sorry this happened! You think I wanted this to happen! I’m arguing with you and we just met! I still got love!”

          “See! You don’t know me! It just is not the same.”

“But I’m the same person! I’m still Jay! Shawn! Mr. Carter! I want to be with you! I want to father our children! I want to try! I want things to be the same!”

“But it’s-” He grabbed her and kissed her on the lips. She tried pushed away, but gave in. The kisses felt the same and she still got a tingle in her chest, but does it still mean what it did before?.....To Be Continued…….shortly…..

Who Is You?

This post isn't as long, but it's all I could type tonight and figured I'd post it! I'll post again Friday!!! Thanks for reading!.....HERE WE GO.....

“I think you’ve said it all. I love you, Daddy and yes listen to Lil’ Man here and come back.” Shawn pounced off Bey’s lap and put on his coat. Grandma’s coming over, remember? We have to go.”

          “Awww, okay.” Bey started to release Jay’s hand when she felt her own cramp. “Ouch!”

          “Are you okay, Mommy?”

“Oh my god!!! NURSE!!!!!” Beyoncé kept yelling until a nurse came running in.

          “What’s wrong?!?!”

“He grabbed my hand!”

          “Aw, I’m sorry ma’am, but twitches during a coma are very common.”

          “No! This wasn’t a twitch! He squeezed my hand! I’m not crazy!”

          “Well even if he did, we can’t do anything until he wakes up.”

          “I’m staying, then until he does.”

“Visiting hours end at 5:30. You got an hour.”

          “Mommy, what about grandma?”

“Shit. Alright, baby. Let’s go.” Bey kissed Jay’s forehead and whispered in his ear. “I know you can hear me. I hope to see you up and awake tomorrow morning.” The nurse started to leave the room.

          “Excuse me??”

“Yes?” She turned around.

          “If he does wake up, could you please contact me immediately?”

          “I’m not here all night, but I’ll pass it on to my replacement.”

          “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.” She left and Bey grabbed her purse and Shawn’s hand.

          “Tell Daddy you’ll see him later, baby.”

“Bye Daddy. I’ll see you tomorrow! I love you!”

          They left and got home quickly. Bey had invited people over and then forgot she couldn’t cook a meal for five people.

          “Oh no! What am I gonna do!?”

“What’s wrong, Mommy?” He looked up from his cars.

          “Baby! Mommy can’t cook and grandma is coming in thirty minutes! What am I gonna do?!”

          “Make em samichs!”

“I guess I could do that….hmmm. This is horrible.” She put her head in her hands and then staring whipping out stuff to make sandwiches.  “We might as well have gone to subway…I don’t have time to make Hamburger Helper. Ugh.” Bey just threw stuff all over the counter. “There, I’m done. Come upstairs with me real quick.”

          Bey changed out of her sweats and put her jeans back on. When she was coming down the steps with Shawn the doorbell rang.

          “Grandma!!!” Shawn ran to the door.

“Baby, be careful.” Bey looked through the peep hole and it was them. She unlocked the two locks and let them in.

          “Good evening, Mama.” After a long hug, she gave her a kiss on the cheek. “How’ve you been?”

          “I’ve been great, baby. How are my two babies?”

“Shawn is doing great and so is his little sister.” Bey smiled.

          “You hear that grandma! I’m having a sister!”

Gloria rubbed his head. “Yes! Jay always wanted a little girl. Speaking of Jay, where is he? Jay come see ya Mama!”

          “And ya sisters!” Annie yelled.

“Um, Jay’s not here. That’s kind of what I wanted to talk to you all about.”

          “Well, where is he?”

“Let’s eat first. Now, without Jay, y’all know I couldn’t do much so this is the only thing easy we’ve had. It’s make your own sandwich night!” They laughed at her and gathered around the big ole island in the kitchen.

          “Now, Beyoncé. My sweet lil daughter in law.”

“Yes, ma’am?”

          “What did you have to tell us about our Jay?” She stood next to her. Everyone was staring at her and she couldn’t get it out.

          “Um….”

“Spit it out, Bey! You know you can tell us!” Michelle blurted out.

          “Is it bad?” Michelle questioned.

“You guys…Jay and I….um…”

          “Y’all aren’t having relationship issues are you?”

“No, no not that.”

          “Then what is it?”

“I started bleeding….”

          “Is the baby alright?!?” Everyone was starting to get worried by the way she was stuttering.

          “Yes, but please let me just try and get this-” The phone started to ring. Bey quickly answered. “Hello?!?!?.......Yes, this is she. Yessss! Thank you so much I’ll be right there!” She started to cry. “Umm, I’ll just have Jay tell you. We have to go and get him though. SHAWN!?!?!”

          “Yes, Mommy????”

“It’s Daddy! Daddy is up! C’mon get your jacket!”

          “Really?!?!?!” He started crying, too. Bey grabbed him and kissed him on the cheek. Jay’s family was so lost.

          “You guys can just follow me! I know you’re confused, but there is no problem now!”

          “Okay…y’all heard her. Let’s go!”

Bey got in the car and they all went to the hospital. She rushed into the front desk to check-in.

          “Sorry, ma’am, but visiting hours are over.”

“No, you don’t understand. I just got a phone call from my husband’s nurse and he woke up out of his coma. I need to go see him along with the rest of his family. There are five or six of us, please!”

          “Two of you can go up. I’m sorry.”

“That’s fine. Thank you!” She got the two stickers, put one on Shawn and one on her. Gloria, Annie, Michelle, and Eric can in.

          “Bey, you’re so fast. We didn’t think we’d catch up with you!” Eric laughed.

          “Sorry! And bad news. Only two of us can go up! I’m taking Shawn with me. Annie keep your cell phone on and I’ll call you!”

          “Alright, Bey!”

She grabbed Shawn’s hand because he was getting too heavy for her to carry. The elevator door opened and they dashed down the hall into Jay’s hospital room.

          “JAY!!!!!!!” Bey ran up to the bed and started kissing him all over the face.

*thirty minutes ago, when Jay woke up*

Jay’s nurse, Tyson, was checking his vitals before she went on a small break. When she pushed the new IV in, he face scrunched up and let out a grunt.

           “Mr. Carter?!” She brushed his face and he took a strong grip of Tyson’s arm. “Ow, shit. Mr. Carter. You’re hurting me.” Jay squinted and blinked a few times.

          “It’s so bright.” Tyson turn off one of the lights.

“Is that better for you?”

          “Yeah. Who are you?”

“I’m Tyson. I’m your nightly nurse. Welcome back.” She gave him a pat on the shoulder. “I’ll be right back. I’m going to get the doctor and call your wife.”

          “Wait. I’m not married.”………To Be Continued……

Sleep...

First off, I just wanted to say thank you for all the positive feedback and my readers. I know my updates have been scarce, but I’m trying to keep a steady pace. Some of you want longer posts and I’ll try to do that. I hope you all enjoy this next post…..

Solange, Julez, and Mama Tina got to Beyoncé's house at 3:30. Bey told them everything. From the blood, accident, and now Jay’s being in a coma……HERE WE GO……

"Bey, why didn't you tell me?!? I would've been there for you!"

"I figured that he'd wake up sooner and that nothing would happen. We could pretend like nothing ever happened, but I guess not. I miss him. I see him every day, but that's not my baby in there. It’s not the same."

Mama Tina sat next to her and rubbed her back.

"He's gonna be alright, baby. Just give him time trust me."

 They make their way to the hospital and go to his room. The nurse tells them that nothing has changed since the last visit.

"Well, here's Daddy, Shawn." Shawn ran up to Jay and grabbed his hand.

"Daddy!" He saw all the wires and tubes and stepped back. "Mommy, what's wrong with Daddy?" Bey picked him up and felt a knot in her throat.

 "Daddy is in a very deep sleep, baby. We have to wait for him to wake up."

"But he always wakes up for me."

"Not when he’s in this kind of sleep babe. I'm sorry."

          “Mommy, I want to go home.”

“We’ll leave soon.”

          “Have you told his family, Bey?” Mama Tina picked up Shawn.

“No, you guys are the only ones that know.”

“Beyoncé, you can’t keep this hidden from everyone. I want you to call them now and tell them to come down here.”

          “Now? Why don’t I tell them Monday? I’ll have them over. Annie, Michelle, and Eric, too.”

          “Okay. That’s fine.”

“Thu, you want me and Julez to stay with you guys?”

          “That’d be nice. It’s so quiet with just the two of us.”

“Alright.”

          “Why don’t y’all go ahead and go to my house. Mama, can you cook something up? I’m gonna be there later. I might as well call them now.”

          “Yeah, that’s fine. You gonna be alright?”

“Yeah. I’ll be fine.”

          “Alright, bye.”

Bey kissed Mama, Solo, and Julez on the cheek. She gave Shawn a big hug and could tell that he was very upset. She kissed her baby on the cheek and walked them out.

*back in the room*

She dialed Mama Gloria’s number quite a few times, but just hung up before she could answer. Her phone rang and she answered.

          “Hello.”

“Jay? Is everything alright? You’ve been calling like crazy.”

          “Hey, Mama. It’s Beyoncé.”

“Oh, hey baby. Is everything alright?”

          “Um, not really, but don’t worry about it. I have to tell you and Jay’s brother and sisters something that I’ve been holding in. I think it’s important enough to have to tell you in person. Could you come over for dinner Monday night, please?”

          “Um, yes. Monday works. Should I be concerned?”

“No. Not right now, at least. I’ll let you know if anything else changes.”

          “I’m slightly confused, but okay sugar. I’ll be there Monday night. Is five okay?”

          “That’s perfect. I have to go now, thank you.”

“You’re welcome. Stay safe.”

          “I love you.”

“I love you, too and tell my son and grandson I said the same.” Bey smiled.

          “Will do.” Beyoncé hung up the phone. She gathered her bags and sat on the edge of Jay’s hospital bed. “Come back, baby. Please. I miss you. Your son misses you. We need you.” She squeezed his hand. “I have to go now. I love you and so does Shawn and your mother. She says hi. I’ll be back to see you on Monday. See you later.” She kissed him on the forehead and left.

          When she got home, Mama Tina had a very nice dinner made. They were saying grace when Beyoncé walked through the front door.

          “I’m back!”

“We just sat down, Bey. Come on.” Bey washed her hands and sat down at the table. “Alright, bow your heads. Dear God, we ask that you bless this food and we pray that it nourishes our bodies. Lord, we ask that Jay is able to recover and come back to us healthy and without problem. Keep your love in my daughter’s and their son’s along with the growing seed in Beyoncé. Lord we love and thank you. Amen.”

          “Amen.” They all said in unison. After dinner, Solo and Julez took Mama Tina home. They came back with some clothing since they would be staying with Bey for a short while.

          That night Bey was giving Shawn a bath.

“Mommy, can I ask a qwestion?”

          “You just do, baby.”

“I’m serious, Mommy.” She started to rinse him off and wrap a towel around him.

          “Okay, go ahead. What is it?”

“Is Daddy dead?” Bey gripped his little arms and as stood on the tile floor.

          “Oh god baby! No!!! Daddy is very well alive and breathing!!”

          “They why didn’t he wake up!!!!”

“I told you that he is in a very deep sleep! He will wake up, baby! He will!”

          “Mommy! You’re lying!!!!! I hate you!!!!” He ran out of the bathroom. Solange went to open Bey’s door and Shawn ran past her. She swept him up.

          “Lil Man, where you think you’re going?”

“SHAWN!” Bey ran out and stopped when she saw Solo.

          “NOOO!!” Shawn busted out into tears and started to hit Solange. She put him down with a quickness.

          “Boy! Have you lost your mind! Bey, what is wrong with him!?!”

          “Not now Solange! Just give us a minute please!”

“Okay! Yell if you need me.” She closed the door and went back to her room. Bey sat on the floor criss cross apple sauce and pulled Shawn into her shrinking lap.

          “Baby, come here.” She kissed him on the forehead.

“Noooo, Mommy! Noooo!”

          “Baby, Daddy is okay! Mommy would be crying too if he wasn’t. Listen, Daddy will tell you everything when he comes back home.”

          “But he’s not!” He sniffed and rubbed his eyes.

“Yes he is, baby.”

          “No!”

“Why don’t you believe Mommy?” She wiped one of his tears.

          “Because….”

“Because why?”

          “I don’t know, Mommy. I just miss Daddy.” She cradled him in her shrinking lap.

          “I held you like this when you were a baby and I miss Daddy, too. Don’t worry everything is going to be okay.”

          “Otay.”

He was obviously getting sleepy so she put a pull-up and undershirt on him and put him in the bed. She took a shower herself and then got in the bed.

          Monday came around and Solange and Julez went back home. Beyoncé had a doctor’s appointment. She is now into her fifth month.

          “Shawn! Did you put on your clothes like Mommy told you to?”

          “I think I did it wrong, Mommy.”

“Oh gosh. Come here, babe.” He had his shirt on backwards and his shoes on the wrong feet. “You know what we are doing today?”

          “No, what?”

“Gonna see if you’re gonna have a baby brother or sister.”

          “Really?! You know I want a sister, Mommy.”

“I know, c’mon! Then we are going to get something to eat, and then we are going to see Daddy again.”

          “I don’t like going to see Daddy! He scares me now!”

“Aww, babe it’s okay. I’ll be there and you don’t have to come inside if you don’t want to, okay?”

          “Okay.”

*at the doctors*

“Hello, Mrs. Carter! How are you?”

          “I’m good, and you?”

“I’m great and who do we have here?”

          “Say hi, baby.”

“Hiiiii. I’m Shawn.”

          “Hello Shawn, it’s nice to meet you.” He just smiled.

“Am I gonna have a sister?” Dr. Robins laughed.

          “I don’t know, let’s see.”

“Wanna go ahead and lay back for me, Beyoncé. Alright, any complications or concerns since I last saw you?”

          “Nope. The last time I saw you was tragic.”

“Yes, I remember. Is your husband okay?”

          “We pray a lot, but he’s still in a coma. We’re going to visit him later.”

          “Aw, okay. Well, baby # 2 is looking good so far. Now, this shouldn’t be too bad.” She squeezed the jelly on her stomach……

(I had to get an ultrasound not too long ago and the jelly is actually really warm….everyone thinks it’s cold, but it’s not lol….and no I wasn’t pregnant!)

…..the jelly on her stomach and looks around.  Bey giggled a little because it tickled. Shawn started to clap his hands.

          “What is it?!? What is it?!!”

“Shawn baby, sshhhh. Be patient.”

          “And we’re havingggggggggg…..a babyyyy GIRL!”

“YAYY!!! I told you Mommy!!! I knew it!! Imma have a lil’ sister!” Bey smiled.

          “I think Jay wanted a girl, too.” A lil tear rolled down her cheek. They left the doctor’s shortly after.

          “I told you Mommy.”

“I know you did, babe. You want some ice cream?”

          “Yes!!!”

“Alright!”

          They got back to the hospital and Shawn decided that he would go in and see Jay. Bey sat down and held Jay’s hand while Shawn was in her lap and he told Jay about his day.

          “Go head. He’s listening.”

“Daddy! I miss you a lot! Mommy took me out for ice cream today and I got your favorite cause I know you would like that! You should come with us next time. Pleassseee. I want you too. I thought you were gone, but Mommy told me you were just asleep. Please, wake up for me. Oh and I’m going to have a baby sister! I told Mommy that I was going to have one, but I don’t think she believed me! Isn’t this cool? Hmm. Mommy also said that next week we have to go to this place that I’m going to next year. I don’t want to go without you. It’s school, I think. Right Mommy?”

          “Yep. It’s school.” She squeezed Jay’s hand.

“So, yeah. Imma be starting school and I’ve been eating all my veggie so I can grow big and strong and Daddy come back home pleaseeee! Can we play basketball when you come back? Will you slam dunk with me? I think I got it, but I want to do it on the big boy hoop and Mommy is always too tired. I think that’s it. Mommy do you want to say anything?”

          “I think you’ve said it all. I love you, Daddy and yes listen to Lil’ Man here and come back.” Shawn pounced off Bey’s lap and put on his coat. Grandma’s coming over, remember? We have to go.”

          “Awww, okay.” Bey started to release Jay’s hand when she felt her own cramp. “Ouch!”

          “Are you okay, Mommy?”

“Oh my god!!! NURSE!!!!!”…………To Be Continued…..Don’t forget to follow me on twitter! @mixedchick_xoxo

I Want It All Back

Sorry It took me so long to update. I was busy with school again! Ugh lol. I have a 4 day weekend so that means updatesss!!! Yay! LOL……HERE WE GO…..

Bey started to tear. She blew her nose and wiped her eyes.

          “Mommy, what’s wrong? Are you sad that Daddy is gone?”

           “Shawn. I’m fine. Eat your food please and be quiet.”

“Mommy?”

          “Hush.”

A week later, Mama Tina got a phone call from Solange saying that she needed to come to her house right away. Everyday, Bey asks her to watch Shawn for exactly an hour. Solo doesn’t believe that she’s in the office, like she says and Bey really isn’t. Everyday at 4:00pm Beyoncé leaves the house and goes to visit Jay for exactly 44 minutes. She’s at Solange’s to pick up Shawn before five. It’s Friday, 5:05pm and Solange won’t let her leave.

          “Solange! I have things that need to get done! Please, can yo let me out!” Solo was blocking the door.

          “Every since last week, you’ve been acting weird! I know Jay is out on business and that you miss him, but I think you need to call  him up or something! When’s the last time y’all talked?!”

          “The day he left, but this isn’t any of your business! Solange please just go! I have to take Shawn home!”

          “I’m not moving away from this door until you call Jay.”

“I can’t do that.”

          “Why not?”

“Shawn let’s go!”

          “You’re not leaving this house.”

“Solange, you’re really pissing me off. Shawn I said let’s go!!!” Mama Tina knocked on the door. “Solange, who is that?” Mama Tina walked in. Bey turned around. “Are you serious right now? What is this? An intervention?”

          “It doesn’t have to be, Beyoncé. Just call him.”

“Call who? Why did you make me rush over Solange? My hair is a mess.”

          “Mama everything is fine. You might as well just go back home.”

          “Are you kidding me? Solange?”

“She hasn’t talked to Jay in a week. She said he was on “business” and he didn’t tell her how long he was going to be gone.”

          “What? What type of foolishness is this?

“I really don’t need this right now.” Bey sat down and started to cry.

          “Well, youre going to get it. Sis, I only want to help you.”

“You can’t help me.”

          “Mommy? I have my stuff.”

“Alright, baby. C’mon.” Solange and Tina stood in front of Bey. “Guys please move. I’m asking nicely.”

          “Beyoncé. If you really have to take your son home, I’ll go with you.”

          “No, Mama! If I go home, I’m going home with my son and my son only!”

          “Mommy, stop yelling at grandma.”

“Shawn be quiet!”

          “No!!! Why are you so mean to me Mommy! Daddy left and now you’re all mean! I want Daddy!!!! I want my Daddy!!!!” He dropped to the floor and started kicking and screaming.

          “Shawn…………I want Daddy, too! Okay! I’m sorry!” Bey picked Shawn up and held him. We’ll go see Daddy tomorrow, okay? I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.” She cried and hugged him.

          Solange and Mama Tina were so confused.

“Beyoncé I thought you just said he was on a business trip!”

          “Bey, you mean you lied to me?! What the fuck is going on?!!?”

          “Jay’s not on a business trip. I don’t know when he’ll be back though.”

          “But you just said you were gonna take Shawn to see him tomorrow.”

          “I am, but I don’t know when he’ll be back.”

“Beyoncé, baby you’re not making any sense.”

          “Solange, I go to see Jay every day. That’s why I have you watch Shawn. Look y’all will just go with me tomrrow.”

          “Bey, you’re scaring me.”

“I’m scaring myself. Can I go now?”

          “Yeah. We love you.” Mama Tina kissed her on the cheek and Bey walked out with Shawn in her arms. He fell asleep in on the ride home. Bey had “Empire State of Mind” playing softly in the car. They got home safely. Bey unbuckled Shawn in his seat belt and jiggled him a little. She knows that she can’t carry his dead weight. Jay crossed her mind again. 

          “Ugh, c’mon Shawn. Baby, wake up. We’re home.” He turned his head and reached out for her.

          “You gotta walk, baby. I’m sorry. Mommy can’t carry you.” He started to cry. “Fine.” She struggled to get him out of his car seat  let alone up the stairs and into the house. She almost dropped him getting him to her bed. She couldn’t sleep alone  another night. She didn’t even bother to change his clothes. She had no energy. After checking to make sure all the doors and windows were locked, Bey got a glass of water and gulped it down. It was only nine, but it felt like three in the morning. She gave her belly a rub.

          “You’re a trooper, baby.”

She slugged back upstairs, turned the light off and got in the bed. Bey woke up in the middle of the night. Shawn was still asleep. She went to the bathroom then laid in the bed and stared at the wall. She eventually drifted back to sleep…..To Be Continued….

Away

In the last post y’all were kinda confused I guess with my “word choice” and what happened. If y’all are confused just ask me and I can clear up what happened. So, they went head to head with the ambulance. Jay was unresponsive and Bey and the baby are okay. For those of you that didn’t know, Bey is only four months pregnant.

In a cold white room, he dreams of nothing. Wounds covered. Heart pumping. Eyes shut. Jay laid there with his hands by his side and a breathing tube down his throat. He had cuts all over his face, blood hardened into scabs.

          The next morning Dr. Robins comes into Bey’s room. She caressed her arm and told her to wake up. She screamed.

          “Hey! It’s okay, it’s me.”

“Oh. Hi Dr. Robins. Sorry, you just scared me.”

          “I’m sorry. I just wanted to let you know that you can leave. Do you have anyone to pick you up?”

          “No. Where’s Jay. He’ll get us a cab. Wait, what happened to our car?”

          “Awww, Bey.”

“What? Jay brought me here last night because I was bleeding. Did he leave? That’s not like him.” She didn’t remember anything.

          “You and Jay got into an accident right outside the hospital and he fell into a coma. He also had whiplash and a broken ankle.”     

          “Oh my god.”

“I’m sorry, but you can go home now. I have your discharge papers.”

          “On my way out can you take me to Jay and can I use your phone please?” Bey was rather calm.

          “Of course.”

“I don’t have any clothes besides this sweatshirt, but I’ll have my sister bring me some.”

          “Alright, well I’ll take you down to see Jay now.”

“Okay.” Robins disconnect Bey’s IV and helped her out of the bed. They went down to intensive care and she opened a door. Jay had a private room all to himself. Bey ran up to him and grabbed his hands. She kissed them and started to tear at the sight of him. Tubes everywhere, cuts and scrapes.

          “Get me out of here.”

“Okay. Coma patients get a month before you have the choice to pull the plug.”

          “Oh my god. I would never. Can I use the phone now?”

Bey called up Solange and asked for her to pick her up at the hospital.

          “Bey, why are you at the hospital?”

“Don’t worry about it just bring me some jeans, please. Come by yourself. All I need is for you to drop me off at my place and then we can all go out for brunch, alright?”

          “Okay, but why won’t you-” Bey hung up. She had to make up an excuse as to why she was in the hospital. She didn’t want to say anything about Jay either. Solange followed Bey’s orders. She picked her up and dropped her off without asking another question. When Bey got home she ran upstairs and turned on the shower. She flushed the toilet from the night before and sat on the floor of the shower. The water trickled over her naked body. Her tears mixed in the water. She watched as it slid down the walls of the shower. One drop. Two drops. Three drops. Four. She turned off the water and almost ripped her hair out. The frustration she had over the whole situation was agonizing. She stood up and walked over to the mirror. She looked a mess. She noticed a little cut on her arm and remembered waking up and seeing Jay with his head to the side. She dried off, threw the towel on the floor, moved around their bed and put on some jeans and a t-shirt. Bey put her hair up into a high ponytail and put on some lip gloss. She sat down on Jay’s side of the bed and looked inside his night table for the Maybach keys. (They got it repaired) She fell over on her side and his pillow smelled just like the cologne he used. A tear fell from her eye and then she started to bawl. The pain was unbearable, but she pulled herself together and made her way to Solange’s. When she walked in Shawn ran up to her.

          “MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!” Bey grabbed him and smiled. She kissed him all over and held him tight.

          “Mommy missed her baby. I missed you so much.”

“Where’s Daddy, Mommy? Is he in the car?”

          “Um, no babe. Daddy had to go somewhere for a little while. He’ll be back soon, though. Don’t worry.”

          “Where’d he go?”

“Away…..Solange! Are you ready?”

          “Yeah go ahead and put Shawn in the car. We’ll take your car.”

          “Alright.”

They got to the restaurant and decided to sit outside. It was a nice day. It wasn’t too cold, either.

          “So, I heard Jay was “away”.”

“Mhm.”

          “When will he be back?”

“Um, he didn’t tell me.”

          “What do you mean he didn’t tell you? That sounds sketchy, Bey. What if he-”

          “Not now Solange. Please.”

“I’m just looking out for you! If you won’t talk about Jay then can you tell me why you were at the hospital this morning??”

          “Ssshh! Damn.”

“Mommy, you were at the hopital? Why?”

          “Mommy hurt herself, but she’s okay now, baby.”

“Otay.”

          “He may believe that bullshit, but I won’t.” Solange whispered in her ear.

          “Solange, it’s really none of your business.”

“You know what……I’m just saying, alright. But I have to go get Julez. He spent the night at a friend’s house. Bye Bey. Bye Lil Man.”

          “Bye Auntie Solo.”

“Goodbye.” Bey started to tear. She blew her nose and wiped her eyes.

          “Mommy, what’s wrong? Are you sad that Daddy is gone?”

           “Shawn. I’m fine. Eat your food please and be quiet.”……..To Be Continued………

Time

Yessss bitches it’s my 60^th post! Yay! Haha that’s a lot of fucking posts!!! Anyways back to what we were doing! HERE WE GO……

She refrained from turning on the light and felt her way to the bathroom. A night light was always plugged into the outlet. She sat down on the toilet and let out a heavy sigh. Following the trickling sound of piss flowing down the side of the toilet and splashing into the water, she wound toilet paper around her hand and wiped her bottom. Before flushing, she stood up and stared into the toilet. To her eyes, the water looked slightly tinted. Quickly, she flicked the bathroom light on and noticed the red liquid in the toilet.

          “JAY!!” She started to tear up.

“What, Bey?” He shot up in bed and rubbed his eyes.

“Jay! It’s happening!”

          “What’s happening, Bey?!?” He turned on the light in their bedroom and saw little spots of blood on their once crisp white sheets. “Oh, fuck ass no!” He stumbled into the bathroom and caught Bey before she fainted. “Babe! Bey! Wake up, baby! We’re gonna be alright.” He laid her on the tile floor and grabbed an oversized sweatshirt. Carefully, he put it over her head and covered her bare skin. “We’re gonna be alright.”

He laid her back down, threw on some sweats, ran downstairs, grabbed the car keys, and opened the front door.

Back upstairs, he struggled to get her safely in his arms, but the mission was accomplished. He laid her in the back seat, slammed the front door, and got in the car.

          “Hello?!? Is Dr. Robins there?!?”

“Yes, one moment please.” He backed out of the driveway careful not to jerk his wife out of the back seat.

          “Jay? Hello?”

“Aye! Robins! We have an emergency, we’re coming in now!”

          “Okay, I’ll be there!”

“Thank you!” Jay threw his phone down and focused on getting Bey to the hospital. As he was pulled up, the instant second felt like slow motion as the red, blue, and white flashing lights came closer and closer to his eyes. His pupils shrunk as he jerked the steering wheel. Looking back at his wife, he screamed. The ambulance hadn’t seen him.

She blinked and squinted her eyes when she noticed Jay in front of her with his head oddly tilted to the side.

          “Jay?” Back to reality. “JAY!”

The men from the ambulance rushed out and opened the car door.

          “Ma’am are you alright?!”

“NOOOOOOOOOOO!” She had tears in her eyes. A black man with big muscles grabbed her, carried her out of the car and into the hospital.

          “You’re going to be okay.” He tried to calm her down. She beat on his chest and cried. He put her down on a stretcher and she curled up into a ball. Dr. Robins ran up to her side.

          “Mrs. Carter! Bey, I saw what happened!” She hugged her. “Follow me! I want to make sure you’re okay. Jay will be fine, he’s in good hands.”

          “My baby!” Robins helped her off the stretcher and held her hand as they walked into a private room. “This is all my fault.” Robins grabbed her hands.

          “He’s going to be fine. Please, just let me check you out. Jay called me and said there was an emergency. What happened?”  Then it dawned on Bey.

          “OH MY GOD! MY BABY!” She grabbed her stomach. “Pleaseeee, nooo!” Robins had her lay back. She held Bey’s hand and started up an ultrasound machine. Pulled up her sweatshirt and covered her privates. Bey remembered the gel being warm. Her eyes closed and she fell asleep again. She blinked and opened her eyes slowly to the sound of the bass. It was a simple two-count. Thump. Dump. Thump. Dump. Thump. Dump. Thump. Dump. Thump. Dump.

          Robins whispered in her ear. “Baby’s perfect.” Bey smiled and closed her eyes again. She took a deep breath.

          “But the blood. There was blood.”

“Where?”

          “In the toilet. I remember. The blood.” She was slurring her words, but managed to get out a real sentence.

“Sweetheart, blood or no blood. You’re okay and your baby is okay. I’ll be right back. Stay put.” She proceeded to close her eyes again.

Out in the hall, it was mayhem. They had to revive him. The blood was leaving to fast, the oxygen wasn’t entering fast enough. Robins kept her away. She’s smart. “She’s stable, but I need an IV!” Called out, but heard by no one. Everyone was too busy. Twenty minutes later she has her IV.

In a cold white room, he dreams of nothing. Wounds covered. Heart pumping. Eyes shut.……To Be Continued…..Goodnight <33 Love you all. *waves*